Letting Go

One of the hardest things for me is to know when to let go of something - especially a hoped-for relationship.

I have pursued some for over a year and a half, maybe two years, off and on. I would be happy with a friendship, or more. I really just want to enjoy someone’s company and care about them.

I have always made sure - either anonymously or revealing myself - that my friends are always made to feel special on holidays and when I know they are having a tough time.

Most people, including me, come with baggage and memories that have made it difficult to trust others. But when should the pursuit or attention given to a person result in a little trust, and when is it just a long, one-sided street with almost nothing returned emotionally?

Sometimes for our own emotional and mental health, we need to know when it’s time to let go and realize that some people we care about will never be ready to open up. enough to let someone new in or they just don’t care.

Sometimes the object of your affection is actually an amazing person who helps and cares for those who she encounters daily, I have seen that. It’s hard to walk in someone else’s shoes and know what they have been through.

When I make a hard choice to walk away from a friendship, I do this because at some point I need to worry about my own mental and emotional help. It does hurt on a few levels knowing I couldn’t break that barrier.

Have you ever been on one side of one of these relationships? Unable to open yourself to someone or caring for someone who cannot trust anymore? It’s hard these days to trust anyone with a casual friendship, let alone a deep caring relationship.

I won’t let it scar my heart though. I will keep looking for new friends or that special lady who will make my heart come alive with love again.

Until then this is Will B staying hopeful and looking.