Will B. Starting Over
I never thought I would be starting over at such a late stage in my life but here I am 52 and starting over yet again. Although starting over is not new to me this is the first unexpected starting over, I find myself in.
Some may know, I found myself being divorced over last summer, it was a total shock and out of the blue at least on my end. I had thought I did everything in my power to make a marriage one that would last. It was such a scary time last summer, trying to reevaluate my life and try to figure out the big question, WHAT NOW?
I have one more year in the home I grew to love over the past four years and then, I must vacate my home and move on. My finances are a complete shamble going from two incomes to just one, I find myself facing a possible bankruptcy. These are just the material things that have come with the divorce, the real hardship at first was the emotional turmoil that comes from such devastating news.
What got me through the first few months after the divorce was my relationship with God. God has been the one constant throughout my life. God has been there carrying me when I didn’t think anyone was in my corner. I have since put my full faith in God to take care of me in my darkest times and in my best times. If you know me, I am a really chill, laid-back person who very rarely worries about anything. This is because I have come to except and trust that God has a plan for me. To me to worry about something is almost like saying I don’t trust in God, that’s not to say that I don’t still get nervous about an outcome from time to time, but as a whole I don’t really worry about the big picture things anymore, it’s such a relief to finally let go and trust in God. Do you trust God with your life? Is there something really weighing heavy on you? If so then this is the time to go to God in prayer and give your problems to him. God created the universe and everything in it, do you think he can’t handle our problems?
Proverbs 3:5 – “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” And Matthew 6:25 - “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?” These two verses should give you peace. Remember though God works on a different timeline and has perfect clarity in our lives, what you need may not always be what you want or expect. Sometimes what looks like a storm is actually the rain you need to make a seed grow. This is Will B saying, go to God in earnest prayer about what troubles you have and know God has a plan for your life.