Will B.

Will B.

Figuring it out

It seems like trying to figure things out never really ends. I’m sure it’s for the good though. I like to evaluate how I am doing in life and where I am headed. I have to say I have never been happier about where I am in life than the time I have been in Olney.

Sometimes I find myself waiting for the other shoe to drop because when life is great there always seems to be another shoe waiting to drop to ruin things or make life difficult. I trust in God’s plan but my human nature is always trying to work its way in with doubt.

I am a self-made man and have always been the only person to push me or guide me toward any sort of direction - with the exception of my mom. Even though I loved and was very close to her, she was not in my life long enough to be enough of an influence as to what path to take or how hard to push.

She is the reason I love to cook, the reason I am too emotional at times, the reason I love horror movies and books and much more, but was not there to guide me in the most important things in life.

Good or bad, where I am at and where I came from in life is all from me. I look around Olney and see all of these amazing parents of kids who are simply extraordinary. I hope the youth understand why they are so great. It is these parents’ constant pushing and guidance that are helping mold them to be successful later in life when their parents aren’t there for them. I am jealous of that at times. I never had parents who cared enough to guide or push me in any direction or to make sure I kept myself on a path to success.

Things were normal until I was about 12 when my dad and stepmom of six or seven years divorced and my little brother and I were driven from our home in Texas by a half-sister and her boyfriend and unceremoniously dumped at our nana and papa’s house in Florida.

We were told it was for a vacation and later found out it was permanent. From that moment on, I pretty much took care of myself and chose what path to follow with no guidance or parental push and it showed in every decision I made - almost all bad ones, for sure.

One of my favorite songs is “Time” by Pink Floyd because it describes my life up until I was almost 30. The lyrics are metaphorically talking about missing the start of life and not knowing what to do in life, with no push or guidance.

Listen to this melancholy song if you want to know more about how my life began and went until I was almost 30. That’s when I woke up and decided where I wanted my life to go and what I wanted it to be about and now that I have reached that sweet part of my life here in Olney, I don’t want the other shoe to drop.

This is Will B saying, keep pushing those youths towards success and guiding them. In my experience, it is desperately needed, whether they know it or not.